Jesus… In the Garden

Jesus was greatly distressed and troubled to the point of death. His prayer was said in such agony that the disciples heard it before falling asleep due to the sadness and grief.

This is a mix of things I’ve shared before. I feel that I am to share this again. For someone.

Maybe for a few someones.

I have cried out to God loudly many times in my life, even before I trusted in God’s will completely. I knew He was there, holding me. Patiently waiting on me to surrender. He helped me every time, but not always in a way that I had hoped or even recognized. But He answered. If only I had given up my perceived control… that control I never really had over anything.

Our spirit can be willing to not fall to temptation, but Jesus says our body is weak. Our flesh. Our minds. Our desires. Our wants. They try to take over – especially when we want to control a situation because we think we have the best answer figured out. Our sight is limited. He gives us just enough Light. It is right where we need it.

Aren’t you used to walking into a dark room and flipping a switch to see a flood of light show you where you are and what the surroundings include? We don’t normally have lights that just light up the spot we are standing in. We don’t buy flashlights that just light up the immediate area around the flashlight. Instead we want lights that go as far as possible so that we can see what is way ahead of us.

But God doesn’t always work that way and He IS the light. His light is a lamp just at our feet, waiting to show us where to step out on faith next.

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. – Psalm 119:105

For you are my lamp, O LORD, and my God lightens my darkness. – 2 Samuel 22:29

He wants us to explore our faith – be it as small as a mustard seed or largely filled with praises to no end believing in the miraculous healing needed at the moment. Explore our faith, yes! We tend to be stuck in the faith we know. I was stuck once in my life { one LONG period in my life! } where the only faith I had was the faith I knew. But when God opened my eyes through working in my life and through His Word, I started to see that I could explore that faith to expand it. I could even ASK FOR MORE. Even when we have a tiny amount of faith we have enough to ask for more.

There was a man who went to Jesus for something. He asked Him to save his son ‘if you can.” He had just enough faith – still inside doubt – to ask Him for help. His response?

And Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!” – Mark 9:23-24

He asked. He received.

Even the apostles asked for more faith.

The apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!” – Luke 17:5

So what happens when we take that little bit of faith and we ask for more and we just… LET HIM?

He works. That’s all it takes. He moves on our behalf. He shines the light in the darkness. He wants us to trust and ask because he desires for us to know how much He loves us.

So let’s dig even deeper, shall we friends?

Why do you think He only lights just the portion of the path right in front of us?

I leaned in deep to find out, to listen to Him, and I saw His light shine right where I needed it. I believe He does it so that we will know without a shadow of a doubt { the light casts out the shadows, right? YES!!} that He wants and desires to take care of us, to guide us, to love us. He said that.

And I will lead the blind in a way that they do not know, in paths that they have not known I will guide them. I will turn the darkness before them into light, the rough places into level ground. These are the things I do, and I do not forsake them. – Isaiah 42:16

When we are leaning in and looking is when we see more. There are times in our lives when He reveals something – just a portion – that is further into our future but it always has to to do with His plan and calling on our lives. And although that doesn’t happen often, He does reveal Himself in a light that shines out further along the path. I’ve had this happen more and more in the last several years. Why? {I think the answer is more simple that we humans want to admit.}


Because I asked.

The Light is just where we need it and it always awaits us.

I am running after His light to show me where I am headed. Whom to touch. Whom to bless.

Go ahead. Ask. He will answer. And never will He let the darkness win.

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. – John 1:5

It may seem daunting as you run the race. But run fast ahead following that light.

In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. – Matthew 5:16

Lived Blessed,



5 thoughts on “Jesus in the Agony… Let the Light In

  1. great and encouraging post Heather. I’m going through a season of being stretched, matured in my faith. some of it’s great, I’m hearing such good things about God’s plans for me. but other parts are the things He wants to rid me of, the recurring sin, the wrong thinking about Him or who I am in Him. That’s tough.
    The good news is that it is all growth, it’s all about “leaning into him” – love that phrase.

    it’s faith, it’s trust, it’s about growth in these areas. I know I need to keep asking both for help & to go deeper.

    love the way this post encourages the reader to ask, to press in.
    God bless you Heather.


    1. “Thanks” doesn’t seem adequate for your beautiful comment. I mean to convey… you’ve eloquently laid open your heart here and I think that is beautiful! Because it is, I’ve learned, when we do that very thing that He can work the clay as master molder. He can can truly renew our mind through our open heart.

      I am thankful you have shared this, because sharing it will bless you as much as it blessed me! Greatly! It reminded me how the wrong thinking is something we each (ME!!) need to be watching diligently. It can happen so easily.
      Is your name Bunny?
      I’d feel better addressing you by name, my friend. 🙂


      1. Thank you Heather. That’s such a lovely greeting.
        I’m pleased to make your acquaintance also (very British, I know 😉

        Love your blog which shows your heart & your clear desire to follow God.
        I look forward to getting to know you better.
        God bless


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